我的心很痛

WOW. I'm so impressed w Hebe Tian! This is the first day after a super long time I searched for a chinese song. Not that I hate chinese songs or anything, but I'm just too used to listening to whatever I already have in my phone.

So today i came across her songs and I was like, WOW! That's not like her voice in the past at allll.

Enjoy.

'田馥甄的歌聲像一個不太喧嘩的夜晚 田馥甄的歌聲像一個不太安分的靈魂'

why tan?

well. i like it.

by the way. i realised that one of the jobs i would never be able to do well is.... paint nails.

damn

AND I WANT TO SLEEP NOW!

well more like I don't want to wake up early.

Life has been extremely hard these days. Never felt so lethargic before, never had to worry as much before. It's surprising how much you 'age' when there is so much to do. I wish I could just do the following things in my life:

- Wake up

- Blow fan

- Eat

- Blow fan

- Eat

- Blow fan

- Run

- Shower

- Eat

- Blow fan

- Sleep

Alright that doesn't sound like.... fun. Guess I'm a really boring person to start with. lol.

Oh and on a positive note, HarryPotter is coming out on 14th! :D Can't bear to watch it though, last movie... I could still remember reading it in Primary school.. Then secondary school, JC. Thanks to Harry Potter, my childhood hasn't been as bad as I always thought it was.

Anyway in case those who're schooling is/are reading this by accident, I was listening to an interesting talk today on the 'how to score well' type of thing. According to the professor, you need 5 hours per day to get a pass. But that is for Uni and above lvls. For A lvls, 5 hours a day sorta turns you an expert and for sec schools, 5 hours every 2 days is enough for you to get A for sure. Unless you're thinking of how teletubbies shit and stuff.... ...

Exam's coming, study hard, study for yourself. Especially if you know you've learnt nothing in your life. A lvl students, if you don't start now, drop your idea about getting ccc and above. For O lvls, drop your idea about getting anything below 17 if you don't start.

Life sucks because you got to study. But you don't have a choice unless you got an alternative. ETC you strike toto 10000000000000pounds. Then I'll stay at home and do what I wanted to do. (refer to the top)

This is good for sleeping. Goodnight.

SPAMMED - and random stuffs

For some reasons I've been receiving emails regarding Penis enlarging. Now do I look like I got that thing or I'm interested in that thing..... Now... I know I cut my hair short and stuff.. but that doesnt mean i want a penis.

I SUCK! Alright I don't, someone else does because someone lost my hp charger cable. So I can' charge that silly phone at all. BOOHOO.

and I just did something stupid. it looked like shit instead of muffins. D: boohoo.

Fun fact: China doesn't sell vanilla essence.

so their cakes suck. well most of their cakes.

ok bye.

oh and pies suck too.

Ultra freaking out moment.

Alright, I'm freaking out now!

I'm going Xiamen-Shenzhen-Guanzhou-Hongkong-Fuzhou (ultimately staying somewhr for a month plus maybe) trip on Monday(nt with my parents), but I've yet to plan out my routes!!! I've yet to change my $ too! I've not booked my hotels too!!!! And I'll only reach there at 8+pm?! Okay I'm pretty sure I'm freaking out.

And whats worse?

- I don't have my passport yet. I could only collect it on Monday!!!! On the day I'm flying.

w00t! But I found sth interesting!!!

Apparently there's a place called Bishan(temple) at Xiamen!

=.= ll

But anyway, apparently, I'm supposed to reach xiamen airport at around 8pm, then I think I'm supposed to go Gulang Yu island that night for a creepy stay. But I have no idea how to get there. WHAT.

Alright bye.

I seldom watch drama shows. In fact, I've not touched television for a good 6 years or more I think... But I do like shows like that.

I always think of what I'll do if I live in the olden days and happened to be in the palace.

- Nice girl and help everyone but getting myself hurt or die fast.

- Evil girl but I don't get to die fast. That is to say I might still die one day. D:

I think I might be the evil one. As I grow older, I realized the world is not as perfect as I wished it could be. The family I wished to have doesn't really exist anymore. I only get to see my mom and siblings once a year... Now I don't even see my dad.

The ones around me, whom I thought were kind, were nice to me turned out to be such a disappointment. To think I didn't wanted to believe they were evil till the last minute, when I see concrete proofs. So perhaps its good to be not as trusting/stupid. Being evil could do less harm. hmm...

Bye.

Pet or not

Now I know I probably talked about topics relating animals, pets whatever. But here I am again.

Get a pet for yourself only if you LOVE it. That is to say, you're willing to:

- Bath it

- Withstand/LOVE its smell if it is not supposed to be showered ie, hamster

- Play with it

- Hold it in your arms

- Let it crawl all over your body

- Let it pee and make your house smelly

- Change its bedding, food etc at least once a week

- Kiss it

If you do not fall into any of the above, refrain from getting yourself a pet please. Just go to the freaking Zoo if you need to look at animals wth.

Why am I so pissed:

I know of someone who loves rats. So what happened is that he bought a few rats of different kinds. First few weeks went on well, he seperates them in a few different cages, fed them the right type of food.

- Checked. Good owner so far.

Then, he realized that he is not as patient and as hardworking as he thought he is. So he now threw all different species of rats together. In a same cage. and fed them BREAD. thats it.

- A small rat got her neck bitten by other rats. It looked like her necks are falling off wtf. I cried when I see that, I got that poor little mouse out and put it into another container and fed it green vegg and other food its supposed to eat. This owner got angry and said:

'I got no time to clean cage 1 by 1 la. want to die let it die la.'

and he put that small rat back to the original cage. The worst part is that he didn't allow me to bring it home to take care of!

I feel really upset, cried so much by looking at its wounds. Yet theres nothing I could do..

Think twice everyone... Never get a pet because you THINK you could take good care of it.

I'm just glad my itchy is fine.

Good stuff here. :)

The weather these 2 days had been crazy! I find myself sticky even though I just had a shower less than 1 hour ago... At... 4am. Yes, its 36 degrees at 4am!!! D:

Well I bet the sun is damn happy at the other end of the earth now. He/She must be laughing like crazy seeing how human suffers.

The poor moon must be damn sad and sweaty now too. D: Evil sun!!!

So for that reason, I'm not posting any photos today since I think my face looked like its being soaked in a pile of oil or something GOSH GROSS! Moreover, I did something silly earlier...

DANG

I just applied some 60% acid on my face because I think its going to clear my blackheads or something. Don't worry I'm not disfigured, but it burnt my face like crazy. Hurts! Ouch. So my face is a little red now. D: As for the blackheads, neh I dont think they're disappearing but well they've been on my face for more than 10 years so... ... yah

I just spent around 300bucks on myself on some gigantic 'toothbrush' for face. I'm not sure if its going to work/ if it is going to be good etc, but whatever, I've already paid for it. OHMAH. I'm such a spendthrift. D:

Yes, that's how the gigantic toothbrush look like.

- Clarisonic

I've been wanting to get it for a year plus or so, but I thought I'm still young and I shouldn't be using my parent's money etc blah blah blah. Now that I earn for my own living, I guess its a good investment.

I'll let you know if it works etc maybe after 1 month of using or so.

If it works, let me tell you, this is not a waste of money. A good facial cleanser in Singapore could cost between 20 - 60. And to find one that suits you, you probably need to use at least 10 - 20 different cleansers (Doesn't apply to faithful girls who stick to 1 cleanser for life...) So that'll be $200 - $1200 wasted.

Girls who visit facial salons knows that 1 package could cost over $800 - 2k. And most people complained that conditions got worst after spending the money. I've been to 2/3 facials in some top facial salons in sg, but thats only because I got free vouchers/someone paid for me etc. I don't think $88/108 for a treatment is worth it. Whats worse is that people there aren't professionals. I know of people opening a facial salon with PSLE only, plus 2 months of facial training. So you think you wanna spend $100+ on such faical/services?

Clarisonic doesn't have negative reviews as far as I searched, plus some facial salons are actually using it as a part of treatment. So... why not just invest in one. And not get conned by facial salons/some rediculously priced cleansers.

I used to consider a electric toothbrush for a really long time before I really bought it. And it is not the same as manual toothbrush. My teeth looks cleaner and whiter, my breath improved. Even my sensitive gum improved.

So go get this if you're concerned with your oral health. Of course don't expect this to work if you're only willing to brush your teeth once a week or something... ...

ok bye

Worker's Party won Aljunied GRC by quite a percentage this time round! But the 'headline' news for these youngsters seemed to be something else.... (Look at the 2 photos attached)

Looks like quite a huge group dislikes TPL, and they wished for George Yeo to replace her...

So we lost George Yeo and Chiam See Tong and we have Tin Pei Ling... ...

alright goodnight

bye.

Thursday is very much like Tuesday for me except that I went swimming today but not Tuesday.

...

So? Hmm.. I don't know :P

Anyway, some photos of myself in new dress and stuff WAHAHAHA :D

and while I'm waiting for the photos to load, more election video...

O! That's my huge comb that I talked about. Its almost the size of my head!

I LOVE the lighting of this room. Seriously it rocked. And here's a photo of me. :D

I'm wearing this makeup pretty often now because it only requires one cheap palette for the eyes. Again, I wear zero makeup more these days because I'm lazy. But when I have to, thats it!

More photo of myself. I'm totally hooked onto the background. I love that color.

Yay! finally one that shows you how my jacket looks like. But not the dress. Hahaha I love this photo, its like I'm a attitude girl. :D But seriously I'll look fine in office wear. Hehehe......

Anyway back to elections, I see a lot of PAP people giving out free stuffs around Kovan MRT station today. They ignored me totally so I can't show you the things others are getting. Probably because I'm wearing some FBT shorts and singlets so they think I'm below 21, no benefit if they give me stuffs. D:

PAP

VS

The worker's party.

If you stay around my area, this is a tough fight! Who are you voting for? :)

Anyway don't ask me why is my worker's party photo larger than the PAP's. Blame the google. I searched for photo and thats what I get.

bye

Some Day...

Wednesday is probably the most crazy day in my entire week! Its the day I'd be out for around 10 hours out? Yeh...

- wake up

- wash up etc

- lunch w uncle/blow fan at home

- gym

- tuition (boring, why can't my student just do his hw for once for the 1 yr I taught him?!)

- reach home at 11pm. D:

Today's cool though, I figured that I should meet chy up since we've not met for months. So before we both turn old/grow fat till we lose the will to leave the house, I asked her out for a gym! :D

alright... I'm waiting for the photos to load now, so I'm gonna be off for 10 mins to watch the election rally. I'm at Aljunied GRC btw. :O

Alright done I just watched Worker's Party stuffs. Yeh. and I don't know why is my face there. I'm supposed to put chy's face there, but I cant change the position of photos. Anyway yar my lips are always undone for some reasons. I either lick my lipstick off or I can't be bothered to apply anything since I'll be licking it off soon after... :P yum yum!

O! finally the gym-er. Chy went clubbing at night. Alright I'll talk about the clubbing part later.

Alright I changed my mind, might as well talk about it now. So chy appeared after my tuition at 9.30 at pioneer mrt station with wenqin, my pri sch friend! :) Cool right! :D I was supposed to go clubbing with them but:

- I've not trained myself enough for alcohol n stuff, and I'm not willing to go club and then, "hey boy give me a cup of fruit juice!" WHAT?!

- I don't want to go club carrying my smelly gym stuffs. I don't want people to go, "Which garbage did this girl come from!" I know I could store my items in lockers etc but I refuse to queue to get my smelling items back D:

- I'm not willing to go club wearing sport shoes. High heels are important for clubs just because if anyone dares to molest you or something, you could literally jump on his toes... Bye toes~ Now I know chy said elbowing the guy is enough but come on which guy would feel the pain by a girl's elbow??? Especially when the girl is a little drunk by beer n stuff. How hard can she elbow? The guy'd probably think you're trying to flirt with him or something. Alright ignore me.

- I'm hooked onto elections stuff so I need to get back to read up (yeh right)

By the way my club experience is almost 0 so you could just ignore whatever I said earlier... ...

More on my face. I just can't be bothered to put on any makeup on my face if I'm going to spend a aimless day alone or sth. D: MAN i need to get myself moving!

Ok supposed to have another photo of my feet but whatever I think I chose the wrong photo thats why you see my face for the first photo instead of my feet... :S Heheheeee I love my feet now, I just gave it a nice massage and a nice coffee sugar scrub. I'd eat my feet now. Smells so yummy!

By the way, one of my FAVORITE song of all time! :D Quite emo though, but its a fantastic song if I needed something to fall asleep. Calms me down too. Its like a song telling me:

Its alright everything's fine.

I know the lyrics doesn't say so, but I just can't get enough of this song.

ok bye.

April Obsessions

Tuesday is like one of those days I just chill at home and do pretty much nothing.

- wake up

- wash up

- blow fan

Ya, thats pretty much all... :D Well I go swimming on Tuesday if the weather is good, but not now obviously, its raining outside. SUCKS.

Anyway jumping here to share some of my favorites/hobbies/whatever for the past month or so. :D

Skinnier face than the previous post haha! I don't know but I'm into color contacts recently... But I'm lazy so I wear my just specs maybe every single day unless I'm going for some dinners etc.

I'm into painting my nails too, OO! those are 2 of my newest purchases:

OPI nail polish in Ti-Tan Your Toga (fingernail) and Ski Teal We Drop (toenails)

But I'm bad at painting nails, not exactly bad, I just have no patience to wait for it to dry and add on coats etc. Caibei's good at it. :D

Anyway gosh, I love those colors! They just look so good together I think. You could pretty much wear them with any color clothes/dresses etc. :D Ti-Tan Your Toga needs 3 coats to get what you see so think twice if you're as lazy as I am. MAN! Just go to a nail place and get it done!

More hobbies, I started pressing my own eyeshadows after purchasing some mica etc from tkbtradings/coastalscents. Thats such a fun thing to do. Saves quite some money too! :D I've been using them all the time.

and my favorite comb... This baby is HUGEE! I don't even know why I got such a huge comb, its like as if my hair is damn long. :X

HAHAHA my FAVORITE ring!!! I got this together with my nail polishes when I went shopping with Caibei. Gosh this is totally crazy, but I just went, I NEED TO GET IT when I see this! Ya looks a little scary, but its really cute!

ok bye

FAT/ROUND

I was looking through some of my photos taken in Beijing back in December/Jan (Can't remember which month I was there!)

And gosh, its hilarious! I can't believe my face got so round!!! Hahahahaha, can't blame me when there's so much good food right? I love food and I don't really care about anything else when I get good food. Tsk, hopelessness.

Anyway, some photos for you to laugh at too!

Eating...

Round face...

Round face, but you probably would be more interested in the doggy! :D Its a teddy dog or something. Really looked like teddy bear. So I asked his owner if I could hug it and take a photo. YAY

Worry not though, my face isn't that round now hahaha. Starting to swim/gym more regularly now that I am less busy that previous months! Yay. And sorry if I ignore my blog again, I've been earning for my own living which includes whatever bills, rental, food, bus fare etc. ;)

ok bye

Favorite perfume

Yeap, my new favorite fragrance.

Giogio Armani Acqua di Gioia

I've been wanting to buy this fragrance since last year November in airport, but only decided that I had to get one. Now if you're a girl you know what I mean. Whenever you walk pass a perfume store, you spray some random scents onto your wrist. If there was a particular scent that makes you smile the whole day each time you spray it, thats the right one for you. And if you keep thinking of that scent no matter which other scent you spray, time to get the one you're missing.

Sounds a little silly now, but I love sniffing myself nowwwwww!

Perfume Pyramid

Top Notes

Middle Notes

Base Notes

Yaya whatever I know that's supposed to be the right notes for this perfume, but this is what I smelled, and I don't really care for the original notes. And if you're getting the perfume based on the advert, don't bother, this perfume doesn't smell like ocean and jungle or whatever. Its pure happiness. So the model's smile is true. :D

When I first spray it on me, all I smell was mango. Seriously, a very sweet and warm scent of mango. I'm not a fan of eating mango though, so not to worry if you hate it too. You'll love this scent. Seriously.Then some weak citrus scent which I supposed came from the amalfi lemon. As for the middle note, a little bit of jasmine, red pepper but not defined. I didn't really smell much peony, but it doesn't make a difference to me. As for the base note, YEAH! Sugar. A strong strong strong sugar scent sums up the entire perfume.

I don't know if it is just me or what, but I feel so happy when I smell this perfume. It feels like I'm eating some sinful brown sugar cake with lots of mango topping + wipped creams etc without gaining weight. :P And not to mention how this makes me happy. Just like how you'd feel like after high sugar intake. High.

Yet this perfume is not a wild girl type of fragrance. Its girly, its sophisticated, its relaxing, its simple, its true.

The most common complain about this perfume is the lack of depth. But come on, why must smell like you're in deep thought/you're a difficult person. Well its not bad to have a perfume of depth but its not a bad thing to enjoy simplicity at times too. This perfume makes you happy. Anything with too much depth in it makes you think and stuff so there goes the happiness. No clash.

alright bye

While stepping on a 4inch high heel makes you sexy, elegant, different.. its silly to wear that when you got a full day appointment, with 20kg load in hand. It felt like I was 70kg instantly, stepping on a 2cm circumference stick! And of course, risking a fall. D:

The good thing is that you get a taxi faster than the rest, and people trust you more compared to you wearing slippers.

I've got people thinking I'm secondary school kid when I appear in slippers + tshirt.

Then, I got people asking me if I was planning to have kids soon or marrying soon or old auntie trying to introduce her son to me! Tts when I appear in formal wear + heels. Oh well.

45 days away from my usual life turned me totally inspiration-less. My first day of 'work' was kind of horrible, I literally lost track of what I was going to do with that BRUSH. Luckily I picked up some confidence from the second day. When I stepped onto heels of course...

Time to train myself again. But hey! I'll get my momentum back soon women.

And I love this song! Though I have no idea what its about at all....

I would walk into the wrong side of the train, I would forget my keys, address.

I left my room as it is. used to have a home, not anymore.

I miss those days... Tired.